May 9th is my tenth month birthday.
May has been a month where the symptoms of benzodiazepine withdrawal have subsided substantially. The mornings are rough with anxiety and nausea and on occasion if I eat something unhealthy, my body will react in a big way, usually with nausea and digestive issues.
Occasionally I get the shakes still but I see that walking it off works for me. Whenever the anxiety gets too much, a brisk walk of about 2-4 miles can rid the body of these symptoms.
I started going to a different therapist to go over some “core” issues that brought me to the anxiety medications years ago. My autogenic training therapist acknowledged that I had been seeing him enough and that I should be able to carry on the technique on my own with the aid of a CD.
I still go to biofeedback appointments each week and appear to be showing continual improvement as to the hyper-excitability of my brain.
I am still very aware of the value of nutrition and juice frequently and eat healthy. I try to eat lots of organic fruits and vegetables, nuts, tuna, salmon, salad, oatmeal, etc.
I have not needed a Hydroxyzine for weeks now and very rarely use a Zofran for nausea. I still take the Lisinopril for high blood pressure but am looking for alternatives. My doctor said I should be able to cut my blood pressure down from 20 mg to 10 mg daily.
I try to go to three A.A. meetings and two N.A. meetings each week and one C.R. meeting as well.
I still do yoga every other Friday and try to meditate at least once per day, usually in the morning.
I put together a web site this month, recovery-advocate.net which provides information about benzodiazepine addiction and withdrawal. I tried to make available the information I found hard to locate.
My relationship with my wife of 18 years is a struggle at this point of my recovery. Her concerns are that I tend to make meetings more a priority than she is.