Month 1

I was so happy to be at home. In treatment, the days seem like weeks. I was alone and it was very difficult. I felt

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Month 2

The second month was much like the first. Every couple of weeks I had a serious couple of days where my brain and body retaliated

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Month 3

My wife and I began to go to yoga and we began a dietary fast together. The fast was referred to as the “Daniel Fast”

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Month 4

I thought the fourth month would be less challenging. I was doing the “program”. I was clean and sober and going to meetings. I was

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Month 5

Early December was difficult, much like the end of November. My withdrawal symptoms had not changed much and still impacted my day about 3pm and

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Month 6

Today, January 9th, I am 6 months free of Benzodiazepines after almost 15 years of use. I am seeing glimpses of the freedom possible ahead.

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Month 7

Today, February 9th, is my 7th month “birthday” free of Benzodiazepines. The past few days have been very hard for me because of continual abdominal

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Month 8

I have 8 months now. It is March. I am beginning to secretary meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous. I have to find “chairs” to share their

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Month 9

I recently discovered a friend who is also undergoing a benzodiazepine withdrawal. He has about 55 days when I got my 8 month chip. He

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Month 10

May 9th is my tenth month birthday. May has been a month where the symptoms of benzodiazepine withdrawal have subsided substantially. The mornings are rough

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Month 11

On June 9th, I celebrated my 11th month of abstinence from the use of all drugs and alcohol (with the exception of my high blood

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One Year

Today is July 9th of 2013. I celebrated my first year of clean time and sobriety. I did today what I have been doing for

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Month 13

The first few days of my first year without anxiety medications was spent doing what I have been doing all year, going to meetings, eating

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Months 14-16

Months 14-16 saw the end of summer and fall in its beauty. I was able to enjoy fall more this year because I spent less

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Month 17

The most profound difference in month 17 from previous months is the reduction in the severity and number of symptoms. It has been a while

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Month 18

I celebrated 18 months on January 9th of 2014.  This has been a long journey to say the least.  I have gone from taking a

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Month 19

This month showed continued signs of progressive improvement. I was elected secretary of a very popular and long established meeting of Narcotics Anonymous.  Being of

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Month 20

Month 20 is by far the most significant of all the months of my recovery.  This month was less about the pain and suffering of

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Month 21

Month 21 continued to show improvement in number and intensity of symptoms.  Still waking up at about 5:30 in the morning with anxiety and minor

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Month 22

My days and evenings include a lot to do about recovery.  My mornings begin with a walk of about three to five miles followed by a healthy

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Month 23

Month 23 shows continued reduction in the number of physical symptoms as it relates to Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS). I still wake up at

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Two Years

It has been two years since the beginning of my recovery journey beginning with treatment in Costa Mesa where I was helped to abstain from

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Month 27

At 27 months, I am still having waves that last a few days and in those waves, I experience heart palpitations, difficulty catching my breath

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Advocacy

Advocacy for the Benzodiazepine user who stills suffers involves providing information about benzodiazepine dependence, withdrawal and recovery. Recover advocate understands that the sufferer needs validation

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Autogenic Training

What is autogenic training? Autogenic training (AT) is a technique that teaches your body to respond to your verbal commands. These commands “tell” your body

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Benzodiazepine Tranquilizers

Benzodiazepines enhance the effect of the neurotransmitter gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA) at the GABAA receptor, resulting in sedative, hypnotic (sleep-inducing), anxiolytic (anti-anxiety), anticonvulsant, and muscle relaxant

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Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS)

Physiological dependence on benzodiazepines is accompanied by a withdrawal syndrome which is typically characterized by sleep disturbance, irritability, increased tension and anxiety, panic attacks, hand

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